Throat - TRUTH/COMMUNICATION - What are you not saying out loud or acknowledging? What message from your inner voice are you refusing to hear?
Support or space. I meditated on this question for some time this morning and I kept getting these two words: support or space. I don’t have the emotional bandwidth for takers at the moment. I have room for people who offer love, kindness, and compassion. I have room for people who support me and make me feel joy. If you are not offering me these things, then the only thing I want from you is space. Come back later when you can contribute in a positive way, after you have found a way to fill yourself up without taking from me.
I don’t hate you, and I’m not mad at you. But if you’re coming to me because you need something from me, you need me to do something for you, or you are here to take in any way, then I’m sorry but my dance card is full at the moment. I will not be able to accept judgment, expectation, or obligation for the foreseeable future. I cannot be your healer or your teacher or your mother, I will not extinguish myself to build you up. You are not allowed to take the love I have for you and turn it into a service station, where you use me to pump yourself full of joy and then drive away leaving my tank empty.
If you would like to keep me company, walk alongside me for a while, laugh with me, share a cup of tea, my calendar is wide open. Come pull up a mat and let's meditate, do yoga together, learn, grow, reach for the stars together. Join me in loving life, join me in breathing, join me in being free. We can sit in silence together and feel what the air has to teach us, or listen to our fingernails growing. Come and visit with me and bring something to share; an idea, some advice, some beauty or support. I’ll trade like for like and we can both be filled to the brim with all things that are good. We can love each other, hold each other up, lick each other’s wounds, and share warmth in the cold. I’ll give and you’ll give, and we will trade joy like kids trade Pokemon cards.
I am sorry for you if you are carrying a cavernous need at the moment, a hunger, something you aren’t sure how to fill for yourself. I understand what it feels like to have a hole inside, an emptiness, a longing. But you cannot look to others to fill it for you; only you are capable of doing that. You can take and take and never be whole. I will not be your enabler, just prolonging your misery, so I will not allow you to take from me. Take your space, take your time, and make yourself whole. When you are able to sit alongside me equally, once balance returns, I will be here waiting for you. Until then, I'll let you go. Support or space.
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